Tuesday, February 12, 2019

Full Circle

I thought about just silently deleting my link to Playing D&D with Porn Stars and moving on, but on further reflection, that seemed disingenuous.

Zak always seemed to be in a swirl of controversy and on-line fights.  I had some interest in finding out what it was all about, but honestly, anytime I started to pull a thread and figure out what was going on, it turned out to appear so large and chaotic I became exhausted and lost interest.  Perhaps I should have dug more - but he was just some dude on the internet - a dude who bought two shirts from me.  I only ever sold two 'Old School Rocks' shirts - and he was the purchaser.  That little thing nudged me more on his side, and caused me to ignore some really weird behavior from him - i.e. - the fact that sometimes when someone he didn't like would reply to one of my G+ posts, he would send me a private message pointing out that the guy was scumbag and was evil because of x and y and z, etc, etc.  While that caused me some confusion and concern, I didn't think about it too much.  Shame on me.  It seems so obvious now.

As I mentioned in a post from 2011, "I Hit It With My Axe" was what led me to the OSR - revisiting previous styles of RPG play, and even starting this blog.  Up until yesterday I would have credited Zak with inspiring that, but thinking back, the bulk of the inspiration was really Mandy, Connie, Satine, and Frankie.  As a DM, I think I give DMs too much credit for great games.  And as a man, I probably give men too much credit as well.  Really, those ladies and their crazy-fun role-playing were what made that show, and were the ones who gave me the impetus to retrace my gaming roots and rediscover myself.

I applaud Mandy for her bravery and thank her for being an inspiration to me - even if I hadn't quite figured that out until just now.  Here is her statement from Facebook.

- Ark


  1. Yep. It's pretty awful all around.

    I read about this for the first time somewhere last night, and I've spent almost 7 hours trailing through all the he said/she said and old posts related to Zak and the OSR and other places I used to frequent.

    And like you, I didn't think about it too much at the time. Now it's a rather shitty realization.

    But look at you! Almost a decade here... Damn, Ark! Well done!

  2. A decade? Oh wow - yeah, it's headed there. Had no idea. :)